Tomorrow everything changes.
I sit here on the eve of my weight loss surgery in a very funky place. I am not quite sure how to feel.
It was in 2004 that I had my first surgical consult. For 6 years I've hemmed and hawed about having this surgery. I even started the process twice. Never making it past insurance approval.
So many things floating around in my head. Why couldn't I do it by myself with diet and exercise? Why? Has it really come to this?
And now it's here. Is this really happening? Is this really what I want?
I know - as sure as I know there is a sun in the sky - that without this surgery I will not get control of my eating/weight.
I know I need this.
So here I sit. Scared. Anxious. Anticipating. Hungry. Timid.
Best of luck with it. I know the surgery is just the beginning - or should I say the next step - but it is one of the big steps, I'm sure. Will be waiting to hear how it went.
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Best of luck to you. Please update as soon as you feel up to it, so we know you're doing okay. Speedy recovery!!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today.
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